At certain moments in your life, you have the decision to either stop and start anew but lose it all, or to continue going on the same cycle again and again.
This game is an analogy of life, the longer you go, the more you gain weariness of it, but to stop now feels wrong; you've gone this far, why stop now?... It hypnotizes you within its loop, an illusion of progression, but an illusion so deceitful, you could swear that it's real. The fear to fail just strengthen the longer you go, you know the bigger picture; you know that life itself doesn't have any real meaning at all, our daily life is just a cycle of interaction we've done again and again, yet... we're still here are we? we keep moving on, even though deep down we know that any mark we try to leave is futile.
Our whole life, we just try to achieve deadlines after deadlines; facing pressure after pressure, that in the end we just have a thought in our head, what am I doing this for? Knowledge? money? if so, what are those for in the end? and we'll always have this thought in our head, no matter how much we try to drown it in alcohol, parties and conversation, this cycle of agony lingers for our whole life as we slowly degrade to nothing. perhaps that's just the nature of existence. It's cold and cruel, but yet those are just feelings, and the existence of it in context of existence, is designed in a such way to hurt us.
Will dying hurt us; will it heal us?
Is living painful; is it beautiful?
As we got older, we turn smarter and wiser but also come closer to death; do we evolve or degrade?
It's an enigma, a paradox, a thought, that will never materialize.
