SWOLLEN TO BURSTING UNTIL I AM DISAPPEARING ON PURPOSE

Content warning, talk about depression and self hatred and all that kind of stuff, it's inherent to the game's content with certain endings but also myself [spoiler] There's something special about a game like this, about how it sort of makes life just seem like a series of tasks from one to the next. But it helped me, it helped me to realize i'm not quite alone in that feeling of self hatred and sadness, of depression and anxiety, those kinds of panic attacks, your heart beating in your chest feeling like your entire world is ending, feeling like you can't look at something or someone, and feeling like you need to get out there, you can't look at them, or they'll paralyze you with fear even if it's a person you care about and love, and you don't know why you're reacting like that, but you know that you've got to get away....and then you're lonely....and that loneliness is an effect that has effects on your mental health, and your physical health, and you just want to do anything to get rid of that loneliness...and you have thoughts of wanting to just jump in front of a train or something, anything to get rid of it, of those feelings, all these horrible feelings, like feeling like you feel like you're the worst person in the world for it, for your problems, you try to be better but you know deep down inside you're not good, you're not doing good, you're a wreck, but you have to keep up appearances that you're not hurting yourself even if you are....it's nice to know that i'm not alone in my suffering and that this game helps post all the mundanity and weirdness of it all to a visual alongside a fun little adventure, the music is wonderful, splendid even (thank you for the album recommendations by the way, as a big music fan i'll try to check those out, belle and sebastion AND bob dylan? that's quite the range!), the town is small but cozy, the places you go are strange but exciting and fun. the people are strange but you get to feel familiar with them, and even if it's for only a day, in game , and in reality, it helped me escape my own reality and not feel so alone in my suffering, to realize someone else out there is suffering too in a very very similar way, to know someone else out there has hope even in a black hole of depression and self hatred, and has to give themselves reasons to keep on going, funny isn't it? so thank you dev, i thank you. [/spoiler]

for the price of free, I think the soundtrack and visual style alone make this game worth checking out. story-wise there's a lot of ambiguity that might not be everyone's thing, but I quite liked it personally. cool experience overall!

This game is not fun and is literally not playable if you can't handle discussions/references to mental health, self-harm, gender dysphoria. But still a good game

Really cool and has really deep themes

Ce n'est pas un jeu, c'est un journal intime qu'il faut déchiffrer et qui est bien plus personnel que ce qu'on pourrait attendre de quelque chose d'aussi accessible qu'un jeu Steam. Merci aux personnes derrière le jeu pour avoir partagé ça.

Игра 'SWOLLEN TO BURSTING UNTIL I AM DISAPPEARING ON PURPOSE' – это уникальный и крайне необычный опыт. Изначально, абсурдное название привлекает внимание, но суть игры глубже, чем кажется на первый взгляд. Визуальный стиль минималистичен, но при этом эффектен, отлично передаёт атмосферу тревоги и нарастающего напряжения. Геймплей, хоть и прост в механике, заставляет задуматься о границах, саморазрушении и потере себя. По мере "набухания" персонажа, чувство дискомфорта растёт, и становится очевидным, что игра исследует темы самоотречения и отчаяния. Отсутствие четких целей и пояснений провоцирует на собственную интерпретацию происходящего. Это не просто игра, это скорее интерактивная метафора. Хотя игра может показаться депрессивной, она обладает своеобразной красотой и оставляет сильное послевкусие. Рекомендуется тем, кто ищет нестандартные впечатления и готов к глубокому, эмоционально насыщенному опыту. Однозначно, это не для всех, но если вы хотите попробовать что-то действительно отличное от всего остального, то эта игра стоит вашего внимания.

I don't know if the person who made this game is British or not, but Vomit reminds me of Britain. This is a very British game. I'm not the best at puzzles but this game makes me think and I like thinking so that's a win in my book. Lots of fun secrets and interesting design decisions. This game does one of my favorite things a game can do and emphasizes content density over scope, so Vomit feels very alive as a result. Neat trippy game. I'm looking forward to uncovering more of what's under its surface.